…than I do.
But then. She just is.
She’s not “trying so hard” lately. I marvel at her ability to just be.
I long to be able to…
Not her. Not yet.
Not my Luna
Why do we chose to love someone or something (is an animal a “thing” or a “one”?) when it hurts so much when their time on earth ends?
She was a…
Do cats have souls? Is there an afterlife for them? Is it with humans? Did my dad greet her?
What animals have souls? My sons (14 and 17) both gave this answer. “Maybe it has to do with love.”
Cats die everyday. This one mattered. This one hurts. I feel her absence after only 5 years.
I will miss you, Luna bug. I am glad you are no longer suffering.
I have had many cats and dogs in my life. I am not proud of the fact that I had to re-home a few, but I am proud that I always found them GREAT homes with cat lovers. In retrospect, I should not have gotten any pet when I had small kids and certainly not with an allergic and non – cooperative husband.
Nefer on left, Kashka on right. Taken in 1990 in Maine.
1976 – My 13th birthday. Nefertiti entered my life. I had wanted a horse (what 13 year old girl doesn’t?). Not something my parents could do. So this kitty entered my life. She ended up an 18# bad ass who moved from Texas to Virginia, to Michigan to Maine. She was diagnosed as FLV positive, and was on steroids awhile. I NEVER had to have her teeth cleaned. I had to put her down in 1991 (I was 26 and she was 13) and cried the whole time. I have regrets that I didn’t have the financial/life support to try and keep her longer. She had litterbox issues and to this day I feel like I should have done more.
My poor cats. I am astounded that they have not developed poor peeing habits, or structured some sort of mutiny. I confess it’s not my favorite chore. It sometimes even makes me gag. (And I am a mom, who’s changed her share of poopy diapers, washed poopy clothes and both cleaned up vomit and held the heads of boys who are doing it.).
I have an alert on my phone. It goes off every day at 11 AM. Ha. I ignore it. Then I whine about (first world problem) doing it at night right before bed.
I am waiting for Mocha, the smartest of the three cats, to start writing me threatening notes in litter or poop pieces.
Sigh. If someone could figure out how to make this a fun thing, they’d make a mint.